Sunday, October 31, 2010

The night before.......

Well, it feels like the night before a big public speaking event. I'm not usually nervous as I find this type of work comes very natural - I love to talk. However I can't help feeling I've forgotten something. Have I given enough details on where to find the mini conference, have I advertised enough, will anyone turn up, what happens if my internet falls apart - a real possibility after the week I've had - hence why I've decided to borrow my neighbours internet connection just to be on the safe side. When I'm teaching, I know my subject very well so even if I lost everything, I have it stored in my brain and know I could talk without any support. Not so in this world of online facilitating. My control is only in the facilitation, not the presentation - such a wierd feeling!!!!
Important (as a wise facilitator said to me earlier this week) not to panic and not to take it so seriously. Easier said then done for a perfectionist like me. Must keep it in perspective - this environment has been so supportive of learning and making mistakes. As I tell my children and students - you do your best learning from your mistakes - wonder why I find that line hard to swallow at 10pm the night before???????


  1. Ahhhhh Jillian...I wish I was with you...wouldn't know whether to give you a hug or slap you LOL

    You'll be fine...everything will go well. And even if it doesn't the main thing is to enjoy yourself. I mean...what is the worse that can happen......?!

    Seriously, what I have learned over the years is that it gets much easier the more you do it. But even for experts, things go wrong with technology, so....just go with the flow :)

  2. Thanks Sarah,
    I'm sure that is true, just like teaching.The more you do the better you get at it. I'm sure as I do more of this, the more relaxed I'll feel.